I am a college dropout. As in I dropped out of my major. When I left the College of Charleston in the summer, I was a bright-eyed sophomore who believed that double majoring in history and English was an easy thing to do. I believed I would still be able to have a social life, stay involved in campus and work part-time. But when I stepped into my new life this semester, I needed to make decisions. No longer could I exist day-to-day, following my calendar meticulously and hoping to survive. Now I was in nothing but classes for my majors; three of which for history and two for English. My life became a never-ending cycle of reading hundreds of pages every night and writing essays all while attempting to simultaneously complete my research papers due at the end of the semester. The sword throwing act I was participating in was going well, but I felt the sharp blades begin to wobble and I was anxious for them to come crashing down. I decided my best option was to take a couple of the swords out of play.
I decided to remove the blade of my history major from my life by turning it into a minor. It would’ve been nice if I graduated with two degrees in only four years, but it was too much. I realized I was more concerned with finishing my reading assignments than analyzing them and understanding their significance. College is a time to explore and try different things you have never done before, especially at a liberal arts school. However, being a double major stopped me from doing just that. If I wanted to graduate on time, I would have to take nothing but English and history classes, leaving my opportunity for exploration behind. By turning my history major into a minor, I lost half of my class load, opening me up to take a variety of classes like martial arts and music appreciation, truly earning my liberal arts education. Without a double major, I’ve had more time to commit myself further to CisternYard News and attend many of the colloquiums offered by the college.
When you get to college, it often feels like every decision you make is set in stone and that’s what being an adult should be like. That’s wrong. Being an adult is about looking at all the opportunities in front of you (and trust me, there’s a lot), and figuring out, through trial and error, what you can and can’t do. Don’t stress yourself out about maintaining a decision you made freshman year of college that you can’t keep up with anymore. It’s better to let it go and improve yourself for the future than dwell on your choices of the past.